When things are out of your control, do you trust and let go?
Years ago, there was none else that I couldn’t do but trust and let go.
Let me share my trust story.
MY FOR-THE-LOVE-OF-GREEN-CARD STORY
“Why do you want to leave Louisiana?” the principal asked me years ago, “…because I’m in love with the mountains of New Mexico!” that’s true. Still, honestly, it was more of “because I’m looking for a stable job.” And every year in my old district, I was always on the surplus list! PLUS, I heard from friends that they are sponsoring green card visas in the district! – but of course, I did not tell him that in the interview!
So I was hired and fell so much in love with my school, my students, my co-workers, our apartment, everything about where I am I love!
I started to dream again, made plans, connected with my passion, made friends, enjoyed the simple life, and then the BIG NEWS!
“..the district is also faced with budget challenges.. 7 million dollars cut from the 2011-2012 operational budget. regular attrition. LAST IN – FIRST OUT.”
The following day, the classroom phone rang.
I felt my blood rushed out of my face as I walked into the principal’s office. All the principals were there, and as I sat, all I heard was “.. position no longer mine… budget cut.. based on seniority.. the PE teacher, has Special Ed endorsement, so I have to go..”
In a state of shock, my mind was blank.
I taught my last class as if nothing happened. My co-teacher heard about what happened but was decent about it too. After the period, I googled the net, “special education teacher jobs in the USA,”.. but since I was still in a state of shock, I disregarded the websites on the screen and counted how much I owe my credit cards!!! BAD. REAL BAD.
Every year since I started working, I always find myself without a contract the following year, and it seemed OK, but that time, I loved everything about where I was! That hurts!
Leo Buscaglia’s words just kept ringing in my ears “An investment in life is an investment in change. When you keep on changing all the time, you’ve got to continue to keep on adjusting to change- which means you will constantly be facing new obstacles, and that’s the joy of living! And once you’re involved in the process of becoming, you’re doomed! You’re gone! but what a fantastic journey!”
A fantastic journey indeed! Being on a visa with one-year validity, I knew I was doomed! My reality made me cry, it made me think, it made me reflect, but it made me look forward to possibilities, and most significantly, it made me believe in the goodness of God and His plans for my family and me.
That time, I could only think of three things:
First, Trust that something perfect is going to happen. All the doors, windows, and rooftops are opening again to pour out blessings and graces. And that, I believe.
Second, Do what I need to do. Apply, search for jobs, call, email, send letters, the more prospects, the more possibilities of getting a job! I pray.
Third, Let it go. I am letting go of my need for a green card visa. I am letting go because God may have other plans for us. Resigning from the other district was a decision I don’t regret. I know my consequences, I know my results, and I know my reasons and whatnot for leaving.
I didn’t know why it happened or if it was for a purpose in the first place. No blames, no need to justify, no need to uplift self and be proud. Just the way life is, and I had no answer. I let go.
I only knew then that miracles await me.
A month after, my miracles happened.
TRUST THE PROCESS
The process isn’t always easy, but if you allow your heart to bleed for God, He will give you the desires of your heart. Do you want to see God’s power at work in your life? Trust!